Polar
by elfin
Part 2
Sam's heart was in
his throat
as he parked the car in the deserted road and ran into The Warren. It was deserted, and he had a feeling Warren wouldn't be waiting for him.
He'd come alone, not because he was worried
about whatever Warren would do to Hunt if he didn't, but because he was
worried
about what had already been done.
Warren knew there
was no
point in setting a honey trap for Gene Hunt - he was too smart for
that, knew
Warren too well, too damn clever for his own good.
Warren was serious now, after his arrest; no more
playing, no
more circling around one another like children in a game of musical
chairs.
Climbing the
carpeted stairs,
Sam approached the closed door of Warren's office and called out Hunt's name, gun
held tight
in his hand, cocked and ready to unload into Warren's face if he had to.
"Guv?"
Cautiously he
pushed open the
padded door, the cloying odours of sick and sex mixing with the
metallic tang
of blood, churning his stomach.
But not as much as
the sight
of his boss crumpled on the carpet in front of Warren's desk did, completely still, trousers
bunched around
his knees, pink and red stains on his bare legs, hands cuffed behind
his back.
"Oh god…."
Sam closed the door
behind
him, crossed the room and dropped to his knees next to Gene, pressing
cool
fingers to flushed skin, feeling for a pulse at the base of his throat. He was utterly relieved when a pained groan
meant he didn't have to search for very long.
"Gene…."
Taking the keys to
his own
cuffs, he adeptly unlocked those around Hunt's wrists and carefully
rolled him
over onto his side, checking for any life-threatening injuries like a
knife
wound or a bullet hole.
"That bastard….." Gene was pale, hard eyes blood-shot and
glazed. "I need to get you to a
hospital."
"No."
Carefully Gene moved his head, left to
right. "No hospitals.
Nowt they can do for me anyway."
"You might need
stitching…."
"No bastard's
putting a
needle up there, Sam. Get me somewhere I
can clean myself up and have a very stiff drink."
Reluctantly, Sam
nodded. It was 1973 - Gene was right. There was nothing a doctor was going to do
for him that would make things any better or easier.
"Come on, I'll take
you
back to my place."
~
Sam listened to the
raised
voices of a gang of kids walking up the street - out too late for their
own
good - smashing a glass bottle outside his window and laughing over it.
From where he was
lying on
the cramped sofa he could see the bright, white, full moon against the
jet-black
sky.
He had no idea what
time it
was, just that he couldn't sleep.
In all this madness
Gene Hunt
had been the one person he'd been able to count on to be there,
unflappable,
all the support and fight he needed in one larger-than-life package;
his very
own wall of strength. Now Stephen Warren
had taken one almighty fucking swing at that wall.
Hunt might still be standing, but he was
shaken to his own foundations.
Since leaving the
club he
hadn't said much. At the flat he'd
hobbled into the bathroom with Sam's help, had shooed Sam out of the
way and
emerged twenty minutes later after having had a luke-warm, shallow bath. The bruising around his ribs was already a
vivid purple - at best cracked, at worst broken. Still
there was nothing much a hospital would
do over and above strapping them up and ordering him to rest.
There were worse
problems. Out of the bathroom, Gene had
looked lost,
like he wasn't sure of his invitation.
"Have the bed," Sam
had told him, "I'll take the sofa."
And lips pursed,
Gene had
nodded. "Thanks. Have
you got anything to drink?"
He'd handed him a
bottle of
scotch, and a glass which he didn't use, and watched helplessly as
painfully
Gene had made himself as comfortable as he possibly could, hitching
over onto
his side on the bed, tipping the scotch straight down his throat.
For an age they'd
sat in
silence, looking anywhere by directly at each other, until Sam had
finally admitted,
"I don't know what
to
say."
"Don't say
anything. I don't want to talk about
it. Ever."
"We need to do
something
about him."
"We don't. I do."
"Gene…."
"Shut up, Sam. You weren't the one he…."
Neither had said
anything more. Gene had very quickly drunk
himself into a
restless slumber and not long after he'd started to snore Sam had
turned out
the light.
But he hadn't slept. He wanted to go back to Warren's club, put a gun to the man's head and pull
the
trigger. He wanted to take from Warren everything Warren had taken from Gene and so much more.
He guessed Gene was
hoping it
would all go away, hoping he could pretend it had never happened and
eventually
the terrible memories would fade to nothing.
Sam thought different. More
likely that it would eat away at him. That
he'd relive the sensations, the pain and humiliation, time and time
again, in
sleep and in waking nightmares. That it
would tear him apart eventually; Warren would destroy him just as surely as he'd
meant to.
Sam closed his
eyes, hoping
his own sleep wouldn't be haunted by his uniquely stylised dreams
tonight.
He was just on the
verge of
unconsciousness when his brain picked up a strange sound; soft, almost
inaudible.
Muffled crying.
Silently, Sam
pushed the
blanket to the floor and slid off the sofa, crouched down, crawling
across the
floor the short distance to the bed.
"Hey…."
Tentatively
reaching out,
unsure whether or not to touch, he touched his hand to the side of
Gene's
head. He heard his own name muttered in
a rough, broken voice, and his heart broke in sympathy.
Shifting close,
rising up on
his knees, he leaned over Gene and wrapped his arm awkwardly around one
shoulder, resting his cheek against the thinning blond hair.
"It's okay," he
murmured softly, knowing damn well that it wasn't.
He felt the head move under his and wrapped
his arm tighter around the shaking man.
"We'll take out Warren,
I promise."
It took time for
the tears to
subside, for exhaustion to overcome the barraging emotions. When they did, Sam backed off, sitting back
on the threadbare carpet and letting his arm slide away until just his
hand
rested on Gene's forearm.
He didn't say
another word,
stroking Gene's arm gently, thumb and fingertips brushing the fine,
short blond
hairs until finally Gene's body and mind seemed to shutdown and he
tumbled
slowly into a deep sleep.
There were more
noises from
the street outside; raised voices and someone kicking a dustbin hard
enough
apparently to knock it over. Gene didn't
stir, didn't budge an inch. Just huffed
soft
breaths over the mattress and slept on.
It was a longer
time before
Sam moved completely away. He curled up
in the corner of the sofa, put his head on his pillow and traced his
gaze over Gene's
face in the moonlight.
His own life here
was already
balanced precariously on a knife-edge, but as much as this had
unbalanced it,
it had unbalanced Gene's a thousand times worse. For
once, he thought, he needed to think
about what was best for someone else even if he still wasn't sure that
someone
else actually existed.
He had no idea what
to do
about this, not in this time. All he
could do was take his lead from Gene, lay off his own fight for a while
because
there was another battle to be won. And
if his responsiveness deteriorated… he was certain Gene would push him
hard
enough for some reaction to register. He
had to believe that. Because he was no
longer willing to destroy Hunt's world to get back to his own. Whatever that said about him, so be it.
~
He woke to the
sound of
running water and for a while lay still, eyes closed, listening to it. His brain slowly supplied him with enough
information about the previous night for him to put two and two
together and
take an educated guess as to what Hunt was doing in the bathroom.
It was at least
another ten
minutes before the water finally stopped.
Sam sat up, rubbed
the sleep
from his eyes, and a minute or so later Gene stepped out of the tiny
room.
"I… used your
razor. Hope you don't mind."
Sam shook his head. "No problem."
Hesitation. "I need to go home, get changed."
"Okay.
Where's your car?"
"At the station. They… grabbed me in the car park."
Nodding, Sam rose
from the
sofa. "Give me five minutes, I'll
drive you home then drive you in. If
you're… up to it."
Suddenly Gene was
in his
face. He could smell shampoo and soap
over the usual smoky pub, uneven skin reddened and flushed, vivid blue
eyes
wide, pain shining brightly with every movement. Sam
stood his ground - if Gene wanted to take
a swing at him he was welcome to; Sam had taken enough of his own rage
out on
him.
But although Hunt's
broad
frame was trembling, he made no move to violence, instead he spoke
clearly and
slowly,
"Last night never
happened. Understand?
It's between me and Warren now. It's no
one else's business, including yours."
"Gene… denying it
isn't
going to…."
The large hand
clapped around
his throat faster than he could react; not tight, but definitely
threatening. "It never happened, got that?"
Sam nodded
cautiously, unable
to swallow passed Hunt's fingers. It was
a couple of moments before the grip eased and he was released. A second of silence, then Sam moved away to
get washed, shaved and changed.
The only words they
shared
were directions to Hunt's home; a 1940s semi in a suburb just outside
the city
centre.
Despite the
circumstances,
Sam couldn't help but be fascinated. He
hadn't thought much about the lives of the people he was stuck with -
honestly
hadn't been sure they didn't just vanish when they weren't in sight.
The idea of Hunt
having a home,
and a wife that was a person, rather than just someone to blame, was
strange. The idea that he came home to
someone each night was oddly uncomfortable, and Sam wasn't sure whether
the
stab of jealousy was of Hunt, or of his wife.
"The Missus is
out," Gene told him quietly. Sam
wasn't sure if it was an invitation or not, until he added, "if you
want
to come in…."
He did. He wanted to know just how much detail there
was.
The layout was
typical for
the house, the period. Lounge at the
front, kitchen and dining room at the back, stairs up from the
chocolate-orange
coloured hall. Gene vaguely waved him
through to the lounge by way of a white, wooden door before he vanished
up the orange
and blue pattern carpet on the stairs.
Sam peeked into the
kitchen, white
cupboards against marigold walls and a lino floor - presumably Mrs
Hunt's
domain as he couldn't imagine Gene doing any cooking.
Besides, the man was hardly ever here, the
amount of time he seemed to spend at the station and in the pub. It made him wonder, and not for the first
time, about the state of the Hunts' marriage.
The dining room was
large,
with an oval Rosewood dining table and six matching chairs taking up
most of
the space, glass-fronted cupboards on the walls, dark brown carpet and
a big
window looking out over a neat lawn.
The room didn't
feel
used. In fact, Sam had thus far found no
evidence of Gene actually living here. He
went through into the lounge. The carpet
was again dark brown, with a
surprisingly subtle orange pattern weaved in.
The suite was light brown leather, high-backed with low, curved
arms. A small television sat in the
corner on a cabinet, a record player and small speakers on the shelf
underneath, but the focus of the room was the fireplace, with its beige
and
brown tiles and wooden mantel.
Here were the
photos Sam had
been looking for. Aunts and uncles,
nieces and nephews. The usual wedding
photo; Gene in a brown suit with an orange kipper tie, Mrs Hunt in a
white
dress that appeared to cover every part of her body except her face and
a
bouquet of white and orange flowers.
Sam wasn't
surprised to see
Ray's grinning face behind Gene's shoulder; he'd known they were
friends of
course. He just hadn't been prepared for
Ray to have been Gene's best man. The
blade
of jealousy was twisted in the fresh wound.
Looking around him,
he
wondered why the Hunts didn't have children - was it a case of couldn't
or
wouldn't?
"You ready?"
Sam turned away
guiltily from
the mantelpiece, as if caught doing something he shouldn't have been. Just
curiosity, Guv. He was paid to be
curious after all.
Gene had changed
into what
looked like a looser-fitting suit. A
deep blue matched with a white shirt with subtle light stripes. What was unusual was the missing tie, and it
was only because he noticed that detail that he noticed too the slight
bruising
coming out around the base of Gene's throat.
Stopping in front
of him in
the doorway - approaching carefully, certain that Hunt would bolt - Sam
lifted
his fingers slowly to the injuries, tracing them with a feather-light
touch.
He could feel
Gene's breath
and for a moment thought he might get an explanation - although he
could take a
wild guess. But Gene stepped back, away
from his fingers, and turned from him, grabbing his coat from the
banister
before opening the front door.
Sam could do
nothing but
follow.
~
He could have taken
a wild
guess too at what would happen when they reached the station. Gene had probably known for certain.
He looked pale, not
his usual
boisterous self, and the marks around his throat were obvious now Sam
had seen
them.
But Sam was the
only one
who'd dare to ask. The others would spread
rumours amongst themselves, talk about him behind his back, and Gene
would
know. But no one would say anything to
his face, and no one would ever question him about it.
Hunt went straight
to his
office, slamming the door behind him, and stayed in there for a couple
of
hours.
By the time he came
out the
whispered rumours were already circling.
As Sam was the most common cause of the Guv's changes in moods
recently,
most of them blamed him - he'd done something stupid, most likely,
drop-kicked
the DCI into the shite. Sam didn't care.
There were one or
two
suggestions of problems in the Hunt household, and he thought they were
probably fairly accurate over a long period of time.
No one would ever
get close
to the truth - the idea just wasn't in the collection of possibilities.
But the tension in
the room had
notched up hour by hour, and when Hunt finally reappeared just before
lunchtime, the opening of his door caused every officer to jump where
they were
sat, silence descending.
"Right. I want everything there is on Stephen
Warren. Every alleged assault, every
reported complaint, every unsolved death he's been linked with. I want enough to bury him under so deep he
never sees the light of day and I want it now."
With that he left,
heading for
god only knew where. Sam hesitated,
wanting to follow but knowing he shouldn't, wrestling with the decision
until he'd
left it too late. When he reached the
car park it was in time to watch the gold Cortina leaving tyre tracks
on the
concrete.
~
There wasn't much. The amount of paperwork completed on a
regular basis was woeful and they'd long-ago stopped arresting anyone
who worked
for Warren. There was
barely enough to drop on his foot, never mind bury him under.
Sam had no idea
what time it
was, stuck in the basement surrounded by open files.
He felt responsible. They'd
arrested Warren after Sam had pushed Gene to find the
evidence
against him for Joni's murder, but Warren had got off when the man they'd threatened
into
giving him up had turned up dead in the river.
With no witnesses to impress his guilt on a jury, Warren had walked free.
His attack on Hunt had been retaliation, a warning more serious
than the
one he'd sent Sam.
He'd hoped they'd
find
something concrete, something that had been filed and forgotten,
something they
could use to lock him up for good. He'd
hoped this would be the way they could stop him, instead of anything
else he
and Gene might already have thought up. But
it looked like it wasn't going to happen.
The only witness they had to anything was Gene himself, and he
wasn't
about to testify that Stephen Warren raped him.
What was the prison time for that in 1973 anyway?
He glanced at his
watch. It was gone eight.
The others would have cleared out to the pub
long ago. Ironic that if they knew the
reason for it they'd been down here with him, although half of it would
have
been an instinctive need to stay out of Hunt's way.
Neither Chris nor Ray would know how to face
the Guv if they knew.
Running his fingers
through
hair that felt shorter every day, Sam closed the file in his lap and
headed
upstairs and out.
Only when he
reached the
Railway Arms did he start to worry. Gene
wasn't in there, getting slaughtered as Sam had expected.
No one had seen him since lunchtime. It
was, Sam was surprised to realise, only
the second time he'd wished for the mobile phone to have been invented. There was no way of finding Hunt, save for
putting out an APB on the car.
He could only hope
he was
okay, and wait.
But half a pint of
larger
later, he decided he'd waited long enough.
And by the time he got into his car and started the engine,
starting to
think about where to start looking, he was worrying that Hunt had gone
after Warren on his own.
The club was the
last place
he wanted to go back to, but the first place he knew he should check. He wasn't sure what he'd do if he came face
to face with the man but if Gene had gone there….
"Alpha 2,
respond." Sam reached for the ancient
in-car telephone that was cutting-edge technology in these days.
"Phyllis?"
"Alpha 2. Shooting at The Warren, please attend."
The beer felt
suddenly heavy
in Sam's stomach. "I'm on my
way. Phyllis, has Alpha 1
responded?"
"The Guv? Haven't heard from him all day."
~
Sam sat in his car,
face in
his hands, trying to blot out what he'd seen in Stephen Warren's office.
The bastard was
dead. Very dead.
He had a hole in the centre of his forehead, a bullet in the
brain, and
three pencils up his ass.
He deserved it. Even in Sam's 2006, politically-correct,
modern-standards-of-policing brain, he deserved it.
But the idea that Hunt had shot him in
cold-bloodied revenge didn't sit quite right.
Gene wasn't a murderer. He was
hurting and he was humiliated, but to shoot Warren, to kill him… Sam hoped he was better than
that.
Still, he needed to
find
him. The trouble was, when he'd needed
to find him before now he'd just gone to the Railway Arms.
Where else did Gene Hunt go?
Sam drove out to
the suburban
home he'd been to that morning. The lights
were on downstairs but the Cortina wasn't anywhere to be seen and the
last
thing Sam wanted was to meet the Missus.
He re-checked the
pub, which
was closed now, and the station, which was mostly empty, before driving
to the
dump he was starting to call 'home'.
Hunt's car was
parked down a
side-street and Sam's heart was racing by the time he'd run up the
stairs to
his flat.
The door was still
in piece -
but the lock was pathetic and a hard push would have opened it.
Inside, the room
was dark, but
by the moonlight slicing in through the slit in the curtains Sam could
see Hunt
sitting on the sofa, bottle in one hand, shoulders hunched over.
Sam closed the door
behind
him and crouched down slowly in front of him, cautiously placing his
hands on
the man's knees. He could feel the
subtle trembling of his body, the tears falling fast and unstoppable.
"Stephen Warren's
dead."
Hunt's head snapped
up, eyes
wide.
"What?"
"Someone shot him."
Gene's breath
escaped his
lungs in one breath of soul-deep relief.
He stared for a long time and must have seen something in Sam's
face
because suddenly he said, "You think… Sam, I didn't….."
Sam shook his head,
raising
his hand to Gene's face, stroking damp hair back from his temple in a
gesture
he didn't want to translate into words.
"No."
"Oh, Christ…."
Gene dropped his
head forward
again and Sam rose up, sliding both arms around his shaking shoulders,
the
blond head coming to rest against his own.
Tears soaked into his shirt and he held on in silence for Gene
to cry
himself out.
Eventually he felt
Hunt
trying to sit up and he let him go, dropping back to sit on his heels,
watching
as Gene put the bottle down and reached a shaking hand out to the sofa
cushion
next to him to pick up his fags and lighter.
His hands shook,
making the
short flame dance around the end of the cigarette and finally Sam took
the
lighter from him and held it steady. "Thanks. When was Warren...?"
"Tonight, only a
couple
of hours ago."
"He's dead?"
"Yes.
Very.
Whoever did it... put three pencils where the sun don't shine."
"Blunt end
first." Gene took a long drag,
pulling tar and nicotine into his lungs, closing his eyes as the bad
stuff
settled his nerves. "Bastard
deserved it." He reached for the
bottle again.
"Yeah." It was difficult to resist the urge to touch,
to comfort. "Have you eaten
anything?"
"No.
I'm... scared to. Don't know
what'll happen if I try to take a
shit." Blue eyes rose to meet his
and the misery in his expression was heartbreaking.
"It's still bleeding a bit."
"You need to see a
doctor." But he already knew what
the answer to that would be.
"Just... keep the wounds clean." He
let the full meaning of that settle in,
knew when it had when Gene's head dropped, moving side to side. "You need to eat. Let
me make you something."
Rising to his feet
he checked
the fridge. Eggs. And
cheese.
"How about an
omelette?"
Gene's little shrug
seemed to
indicate that was acceptable.
"Saw a lot of this
did
you, in Hyde?"
The question took
Sam by
surprise. "I've dealt with victims
of rape before, yes."
"Blokes?"
"Once or
twice." He found the frying pan and
picked out the bottle of cooking oil - not exactly virgin but it was
the most
expensive he'd been able to find in the corner store Nelson had
recommended.
"How did they deal
with
it, Sam? .... Because
I don't think I am."
Turning back, Sam
could see
Gene's hands still shaking where he sat, hunched over, smoking like a
strung-out druggie.
"You're doing
fine."
"I couldn't face
them -
at the station. I feel like... if they
look at me too long they'll know, like it's written all over my face. A big neon sign - 'Fucked by Stephen Warren'
- right across my forehead."
Reaching across the
gap
between them, Sam put his hand on Gene's shoulder and squeezed gently. "They'll never know if you don't tell
them. He's dead. He's
not going to tell another living soul."
"What if there are
photos?"
"Did you see
flashes? Did you hear a
camera?" Gene shook his head
quickly. "I doubt Warren would have wanted evidence of what he'd done
any more
than you do."
Sliding his hand
down over
Hunt's shoulder, Sam wet back to cooking, breaking three eggs on the
edge of
the frying pan, crumbling in some cheese as they cooked.
"Have you told the
missus?" he asked carefully a couple of minutes later.
"You are joking?"
"I just thought...
she'd
noticed there was something wrong."
Gene's derisive
snort alone
told him how wrong he was. "She
hasn't noticed anything about me in a long time. Just
assumes I'm working hard to keep her in
the style to which she's become accustomed."
"She'd still care
if
you'd been hurt...."
"What the hell do
you
know about it, Sam?" He shook his
head, rubbing his eyes with his free hand.
"Sorry."
"It's okay."
Sam tipped the
omelette onto
a plate and dug a clean fork out from the draining board, handing it to
Gene as
he finished his cigarette and stubbed it out on the saucer he'd been
using.
"Eat that."
Gene looked down at
it. "What are the green bits?"
"Herbs."
A shrug, and he
picked up the
fork. The first mouthful was
tentative. After that the rest of it
vanished in a couple of minutes.
"I'm blaming you if
that
hurts like buggery when it comes out the other end.
No pun intended." Gene managed a
smile at his own wise-crack as
Sam washed up the plate, smiling back over his shoulder.
"Thanks, Sam. For... this."
"It's fine."
And for a couple of
seconds
they sat and looked at one another.
"I should go home."
"Don't. Stay.
Have the bed."
"This sofa isn't
exactly
comfy, Sam."
"Neither's the
mattress."
They moved around
each other
comfortably enough though, and Sam switched off the light once Gene was
settled
under the off-white sheet.
It was quiet
outside
tonight. Quiet inside too.
He didn't think for a second that Gene was
asleep but he gave him the space and time he needed, lying awake
himself until
words were spoken in the darkness, rough, painful to say.
"Warren… enjoyed it."
Sam didn't know how
to
respond so he said nothing. He wasn't
sure a reply was needed anyway.
"He had sex with
me."
"It wasn't sex," he
murmured softly, "it was rape, violence.
It's about power, you know that."
"It was a man's
dick up
my arse." Sam could hear the anger
starting to surface. "That's sex to
them."
"Them?"
"Poofters. Bastard Bum Bandits like Warren."
Sam hesitated, not
sure the
words in his head were the right ones for the moment.
Not sure if they were even the ones he wanted
to say. But he couldn't help himself. "It isn't, Gene."
"And how the bloody
hell
would you know, Sam?" There was
anger there, but not the flash Sam had seen earlier.
"You ever had one?" This was slow
burning, and it wasn't aimed at
him, it was aimed at a dead man. All
that horror and nowhere for it to go, no way to take revenge now. "Ever had a cock shoved up your ass
until your insides felt like they were being pushed up out of your
throat?"
Sam swallowed. No was the truth, but not the whole
truth. Still, he could say it so easily
and Gene would never know, would never be able to throw it back in his
face
when it suited him.
But the part of Sam
that had
suspected Hunt had killed Warren
was reminding him that he never, ever would use this subject against
him, just
in case Sam too decided to play nasty.
"It's not the
same," he half-whispered into the dark, eyes closed, cheek against the
cold pillow.
"What isn't?"
"Sex, with a man. It isn't rape. It's…
hard, yes, brutal at times, but never
cruel. It can be good, great.
It's passion and desire, it's…."
Gene was so
incredibly agile
for a big man. Sam felt the punch before
he heard the metal bed creak, tasted blood in his mouth before he
realised Hunt
was even up.
He struck out on
pure
instinct, not wanting to hurt Gene anymore than he already was but
needing to
defend himself, to stop this before it became a fight like the one in
the
hospital.
He felt firm flesh
give under
the backs of his fingers, felt something small crack and heard Gene's
grunt of
pain just before the thud.
"Gene?"
Reaching out
cautiously, Sam
could just see his form in the dark, on the floor between the bed and
the
sofa. There was a sound, like a
strangled growl, and Sam worked out what he'd hit; the curve of an
Adam's
Apple, soft flesh of a vulnerable, bruised throat.
He heard the bed
creak for a
second time and against the dull light coming in from the window he
could make
out Gene's head just above the mattress.
Sam slid off the sofa onto the floor, sitting with his back to
the
cushions, watching the barely visible movement of Gene's head dropping
back
against the bed.
"I'm sorry."
"For what? Hitting me?
Or telling me I should have enjoyed Warren's advances?"
He spat the last two words across the gap between them.
Sam moved closer
until his
bent legs were touching Hunt's. "That's not what I
said."
"Sounded like it to me."
"Because you're not
listening. You don't want to hear it and
believe me, I can understand why."
There was a long
pause
between Sam's gentle words and Gene's defeated denial, "I didn't ask
for
this, Sam. I might have taken a couple
of backhanders but I didn't deserve this."
"I know you
didn't."
And then there were
no more
words for a while. Sam heard soft breaths
take on a steady rhythm. Not sleeping,
just resting, just for now.
Carefully, Sam
reached out
and ghosted the backs of his fingers over the hair at the base of
Gene's
neck. He thought Gene would shrug him
off but instead, after a minute or so, he silently leaned just slightly
into
the touch.
And eventually he
began to
talk, very, very quietly. "The
night we got a beer shower from the Party Seven in the pub," (daft that
had been, opening a gigantic, shaken-up can of beer with two
screwdrivers,)
"I looked at you, drenched in beer, and thought about what you'd taste
like under all that lager. There were
other times too, after a few drinks, wanting to throw you against a
wall and do
something other than beat the crap out of each other.
Like the night... we put Warren away. You were
leaning on the bar, still challenging me with every word you said but
the way
you were looking at me.... No one's ever
looked at me like that before.
"I've told you
things
I've never told a living soul. I've told
you things I would never, ever tell Ray and he's been my best friend
for longer
than I can remember."
Sam waited, kept up
the
movement of his fingers over the ends of Gene's hair, but when nothing
more was
forthcoming he asked a question he'd wanted to ask for weeks. Admittedly, now was probably a bad moment. But if Gene was ever going to answer it, he
would tonight.
"How did you know Warren was gay?"
"He stuck his
fucking dick
up my ass."
"Before. When Joni cuffed me to the bed."
There was another
long pause and
a deep sigh of inevitability before the answer came back - "When I
first
became a DI, Warren already had most of the local force in his back
pocket. My DCI took me over to the pub
he owned then to introduce us, something, by the way, that I wasn't
going to do
to you until you arrested his right-hand man and forced me to.
"Anyway, after I'd
nodded in all the right places and shaken his hand, they told me to go
get a
drink in the bar while they discussed some private business. I was curious, ambitious, so I got a pint and
snuck back into the room - wanted to know what they were talkin' about. But they weren't talking.
My Guv was still sitting in his chair with Warren on his knees in front of him, sucking him
off. It was a dead giveaway."
"What did it say
about
your DCI?"
"It said he
preferred to
have his willy sucked rather than cash in his hand.
I'm not homophobic, Sam, I just don't -
didn't - like Warren."
A few minutes
later, Gene
lifted Sam's hand from his shoulder and let it go.
"If I sleep like this I'll never stand
up again."
The bed complained
as it was
used as a brace, then Gene's bulk rose up in front of Sam, gingerly
settling
onto the mattress on his side.
Sam put his hand
back and
hoisted himself onto the sofa, getting as comfortable as possible,
beating the
pillow into submission.
Again he lay awake
listening
to Gene's rhythmic breathing and replaying in his head what he'd said
about the
beer shower, wondering how Sam tasted, and the part about throwing him
up
against a wall to do something other than fight.
~
In the morning it
was the
same routine; to Gene home for him to wash and change, then on to the
station.
This time there was
a note on
the small, wooden circular table in the hall of the Hunts' place, next
to the
phone, from Mrs Hunt. Gene read it and
put it back where he'd found it before heading upstairs.
Sam couldn't resist.
'Darling
- there are eggs and bacon in the fridge if
you're home for breakfast, and there's a photo of you next to our bed -
so that
I don't forget what you look like.'
Sam smiled ruefully. It would have been witty if it weren't for
the circumstances. Then again, if she
knew how much her husband was suffering, he doubted she'd have written
it. For some reason, it didn't fit with
Gene's
accusation that she hadn't really noticed him in a while, and he
wondered whose
side of the argument would stand up the best.
Not that it really mattered. Gene
was turning to Sam for comfort - such as it was - and that spoke
volumes.
They left again
without
setting foot in the kitchen; Gene in a better-fitting, dark grey suit,
blue
shirt but once more without a tie (and this time Sam felt guilty for
adding to
the bruises on his throat).
The station was
buzzing. The Superintendent wanted to see
Hunt in his
office immediately - where 'immediately' had been two hours ago.
Ray was checking
the racing
results.
At least Chris
wanted to know
if they were going to find Warren's
killer and for once Sam wasn't sure.
Whoever had shot him had done the city a favour, and the pencils
pointed
to revenge of one of his victims. A
voice in Sam's head was telling him to let it slide.
But a more
commanding voice
outside his head was already demanding to know who the primary suspect
was.
"We should put
someone
away for this," Hunt was telling his team, "we'll just make sure they
get a nice comfy cell here and a diminished responsibility sentence in
a cushy
hospital somewhere."
"Wasn't it... isn't
it
all electro-shock therapy these days?"
Gene threw a hard
glance
Sam's way and ignored him. "We need
to find the murder weapon. Chris - did
you search Warren's office?"
Chris perked up. "Not... entirely, Sir. It
stank in there."
Sam watched Gene
turn a paler
colour, saw him reach down and put his hand flat on the nearest desk to
steady
himself. He went to step forward,
wanting to offer whatever strength he could, but stopped himself. No point in drawing attention to their Guv's
fragile state, not if the others hadn't noticed anything was wrong. Or maybe they weren't brave enough to draw
attention to it either.
"Go back, search
the
office and the club if you have to. Find it."
"Yes, Sir."
"Sam, go with him."
It was a surprise,
but he
didn't make anything of it, threw in a good-natured, 'yes, Sir' for
good
measure, and followed Chris out of the office.
"Forensics are
saying they
don't think there are any usable fingerprints on the pencils," Chris
told
Sam as he drove over to The Warren for the third time in as many days. "Murderer must have worn gloves when he…
pushed them into Warren," there was a gruesome underlying note in
Chris'
voice, "blunt end first."
Blunt end first.
Sam stopped for a
traffic
light, those three words playing over and over in his head, Chris'
voice
becoming Gene's.
Blunt
end first.
He hadn't looked
closely
enough to see that detail when he'd been in Warren's office last night.
But when he'd told Hunt that the man was dead, told him about
the
pencils, he'd said those same three words and it hadn't been a question. It had been a statement. A
confession.
Bastard
deserved it.
"I'll drop you at
the
club," he told Chris, "I need to speak to the coroner."
~
"What was the cause
of
death?"
The doctor looked
at Sam, a
little confused. "The bullet in the
head. Why? Is
there some alternative theory you'd like
to offer?"
Sam resisted the
urge to roll
his eyes. "The pencils...."
"...nasty but they
didn't kill him. They caused some
bleeding, tore the rectum, but they weren't pushed up very far."
"Was he alive when
they
were inserted?"
"Yes. And there's
evidence of a fight - cuts and bruises around his face and bruising to
the
stomach. I would say the pencils were
the end of that fight, then the killer shot him in the head."
"But why fight with
him,
then shoot him? Why not just shoot
him? I mean, it's a deliberate
shot. They weren't fighting for the gun
and it went off."
"You're the
detective,
Detective."
He drove back to
the club,
where Chris was already waiting outside.
"Any luck?"
"No, Boss. Just that Warren smoked the same cigarettes as the Guv." Off Sam's confused expression, he explained,
"Found an empty packet on the floor under the desk."
~
It would never,
ever cross
Chris' mind that Gene Hunt had anything to do with Warren's death. Even
if he knew what Warren had done he probably still wouldn't have
drawn the same
suspicious conclusions Sam had.
Sam sat at his desk
taking it
apart and putting it back together again.
Gene was in his office although Sam hadn't actually seen him
since he'd
been sent off with Chris on the wild goose chase looking for the murder
weapon
in Warren's club. It
wasn't there. They'd have found it the
night they found the body. So what had
they been sent to find?
Proof, perhaps. Evidence that Gene had been there that
night. Was he so sure Sam would dispose
of anything he found, so sure he'd protect him?
Finally he pushed
his chair
back and took the plunge.
Gene was at his
desk, feet
up, head back, snoring softly. And for a
couple of seconds Sam stood in the doorway and watched him. Then he backed out and closed the door behind
him. Gene wouldn't kill in cold blood,
he decided without proof.
Someone had. But no one was overly motivated to finding Warren's killer.
There was an armed robbery at a bank in the city centre, and Ray
borrowed Chris to take witness statements.
They were still out when Gene stuck his head around the door of
his
office and said Sam's name, an open invitation.
Sam went, taking
his theories
with him, into the lion's den.
Gene was back in
his chair, sitting
forward with his elbows on the desk, chin rested in one hand.
"Find anything at Warren's?"
"Your empty
cigarette
packet."
Sam sat down in the
chair
opposite. He couldn't remember if he'd
ever sat in here before - before all this, all that had been between
them was
challenge and tension interspersed with moments of harmony.
Sharp eyes followed
his
movements, Gene waiting for whatever was coming next.
But he didn't want
to guess,
he wanted to know. "What
happened?"
That assessing gaze
dropped
away from him, chin staying in his palm as his talked.
"I went to see him, to warn him that if
he ever came near me again I'd shoot him; that we were through. He was alone, I don't know where his goons
were but he was just sitting behind his desk, grinning.
He said I'd make a good bum boy and he got
up, came towards me. I hit him and fought
- proper man-to-man stuff I thought. But
his hands on me just reminded me and the next thing I knew I had him
face down
across his desk and I was yelling at him.
He was struggling and I'll never know where the strength came
from, but
I pinned his hands behind his back and tore his trousers down. There were… pencils and pens on his desk, I
grabbed a few and rammed them up his arse.
He was screaming and I saw the blood….
I told him that's how serious I was and left, went over to your
place
where you found me. I didn't kill him,
Sam, unless the pencils were the cause of death." Sam
shook his head. "I didn't shoot him."
"I never thought
that
you did."
Gene smiled, sat
back. "Liar.
Last night you did, before you told me he was dead."
"Maybe. But if he'd done to me what he'd done to you,
I'd want to put a bullet in his brain."
"I don't care about
finding his killer, Sam. You know
that."
"You sent me over
to
look for the cigarette packet?"
"Realised I'd dropped it in the fight.
Wouldn't have bothered but I wasn't sure if there was any other
incriminating evidence I might have forgotten about, and I knew you
wouldn't go
straight to Superintendent Tightarse with it."
"You're putting a
lot of
trust in me."
"Wrongly?"
"No.
I can live with this, I know you can. You
didn't kill him. Even if you had…."
"If I had, you
wouldn't
be able to live with it and believe me, neither would I."
~
The Railway Arms
was as raucous
as ever. There was a darts match Hunt
had clearly forgotten about and when they reminded him the first moment
he and
Sam stepped inside, he waved them away, refusing to take part.
"Play," Sam told
him quietly. "They need
you." He wasn't talking about
Gene's throwing skills and by the expression on the tired face, Gene
got that. But he downed half a pint in
less than a minute
and snatched the darts out of Chris' hand to the loud, drunken applause
of both
sides.
Although maybe not
as
physical as usual with his team, on the surface at least he seemed back
to his
old self. Sam spent the night slowly
drinking and watching his Guv win them some badly-needed league points.
"Is Mr Hunt all
right?" The question took him by
surprise - Nelson leaning over the bar wiping a beer glass with a
blue-striped
T-towel which caused Sam a momentary flashback to his own kitchen - the
one in
the factory studio apartment in 2006.
Never had his home - his time - felt so very far away.
"He's fine,
Nelson." A straight lie, but if the
barman saw right through it, he didn't call Sam on it.
The match finished,
the pub
emptied out, Nelson locked the doors.
At around midnight Sam decided he'd had enough too. He wanted some sleep; he'd had precious
little of it recently, and gave Gene a small wave across the room. He'd only meant 'good night, see you
tomorrow', and he was already standing on the pavement when Hunt came
out into
the night after him.
"I'm just going
home," he started to reassure, and still Gene stood there, looking
everywhere but straight at him.
"Listen, Sam…."
The question became
suddenly
obvious, and bemused, Sam nodded. "Come
on. On the way you can tell me what's
going on between you and your missus so that you haven't seen each
other in
three days."
It was a warm night. They walked slowly, side by side, hands
tucked in pockets, watching the pavement as it was eaten up under foot.
"Do you still feel
like
you don't belong here?"
Sam glanced across
at
Gene. "Yeah. All
the time."
"I've always
belonged
here, from the moment I was born. But
since the other night, everything's wrong.
I feel like a fish out of water."
He glanced across at Sam, sharing the joke.
"That one was
fine."
"Thank goodness for
that. Wouldn't want to upset your
fragile sensibilities." The gentle
humour in his voice made Sam smile.
"It'll get easier."
"Certain of that
are
you?"
No, but he'd only
admit that
to himself. "About you and Mrs
Hunt...?"
Gene sighed deeply,
bringing
his coat tighter around him.
"Between you and me, Sammy-boy, you've touched me more over the
last three days than she has in a year."
Sam wasn't sure if
he was
surprised or not, but it explained Gene's easy submission to the slim
contact
he'd offered last night.
There didn't seem
to be
anything more to say on the matter, so he let it drop and they carried
on
walking in a strangely comfortable silence.
~
"It's your bed,
Sam." It isn't. But
he didn't say it. "Besides, I'm used to
sleeping on sofas,
believe me."
So tonight Gene was
stretched
out across the battered cushions - looking a hell of a lot more comfy
than Sam
had ever managed to be on them - and Sam was trying to find some rest
on the
bed. Like the night, the flat was warm -
they'd opened the window but it hadn't helped much.
He shifted about, making every metal
component of the bed creak every time he moved a muscle, until he could
feel
Gene's hard, accusing stare through the gloom.
In one final move
he lay on
his side, hands pushed under the pillow, facing where Gene was lying.
"Sorry."
It was a while
before Gene
spoke; Sam thought he'd already gone to sleep but he didn't sound at
all
sleepy.
"Trouble with
alcohol is
it blurs things."
Sam frowned in the
dark. "Like what?"
"Lines."
"Lines? White lines?
Lines of coke? Double
yellows?"
"Stop being clever." Sam smiled to himself but unfortunately he'd
already said enough to stop Gene in whatever tracks he was following.
Time to blur a few
lines of
his own.
"Just so that you
know,
the beer shower thought was mutual."
Something told him
he hadn't
gone too far, but the silence stretched long enough to make him think
he wasn't
going to get a response.
Then, "Serious?"
"Yeah."
"Got any beer?"
"It's not a
pre-requisite."
"A what?"
"There doesn't
necessarily have to be beer."
Hesitation,
this time expected, then Sam heard the close-by sound of creaking
leather, and
a second later felt breath on his face, could make out Gene's head in
the
black.
"Why?"
Hunt
smelt of
fags and booze; it was something Sam was starting to associate with a
feeling
of belonging in this place.
Tentatively
putting out his hand, he touched soft hair, ran the back of his thumb
over
pockmarked skin, around the shell of Gene's ear.
"Why
what?"
Gene
leaned
hesitantly into his fingers. "I
could have killed Warren."
"You
didn't."
"I
wanted to."
"I
know."
He
curved his
palm around the shape of Gene's head, fingers sliding through hair like
silk
threads.
"Sam,
I
can't... what Warren did...."
Leaning
in so
that the tip of his nose brushed Hunt's, he moved his head, left to
right, then
tilted it down. "Don't have
to."
Gene
came the
last inch, mouths meeting in a moment of awkwardness.
Sam stroked the back of his head and slowly
he relaxed, lips parting.
It
was better
than good. Gene's kiss was slow, sensuous;
when his tongue slid lazily over Sam's, Sam pushed forward, Gene's arms
went
around his shoulders, and they fell, landing between the sofa and the
bed, Sam climbing
over Gene's lap, still mouth to mouth.
Large hands curved
around his
waist, not pushing away but not encouraging either.
Sam broke away, lifting his head, reading
uncertainty in Gene's expression despite the arousal shining in his
eyes.
"This is wrong,
Sam."
"Why?"
Apparently that should have been
obvious. He rested his hands either side
of Gene's throat. "It isn't wrong
to want someone. Gender isn't important."
"I suppose Hyde's
full
of blokes holding hands."
"It has been known. There are clubs where men dance with men, and
women dance with women." Gene
looked half-interested, half-disgusted.
Sam smiled gently. "Talk
about fragile sensibilities. You're
happy to stare at a pair of tits on a witness all morning but you're
offended
at the actual idea of sex."
"Pornography. Not sex."
"Pornography is
sex. It has its place as long as
everyone's consenting."
"Bloody
broadminded,
aren't you?"
Sam didn't feel the
need to
point out their current situation. He
momentarily considered backing off, but Gene's hands were still at his
waist,
just holding on loosely, so instead he pushed his fingers through the
hair at
the back of Gene's neck, caressing gently like it meant nothing.
He said nothing
either, just
waited, watched Gene close his eyes and lift his head back slightly. Sam turned the touch into a massage of sorts.
'Why
doesn't she touch you?'
But he didn't say
it out
loud. To him, now, it was obvious what
Gene needed from him. Maybe later there
would be more. But for now the flares
needed to be tempered. Warren had associated sex with violence in Gene's
head; Sam
needed to break that connection.
He followed the
line of
Gene's spine down with his thumbs, moving them under the collar of his
shirt,
tracing tiny circles on the hot skin, reaching to touch under the
material.
Slowly Gene
relaxed, and as
he did his body started to accept its own innate reaction to the firm
caresses,
his dick thickening in his trousers.
Still straddling
him, Sam
didn't change the slow, methodical massage, bringing his hands around
to the
front, sliding over the collarbone down to unfasten just one button.
Gene's eyes
remained closed,
his hands moving from Sam's waist around to rest on his taut thighs. Sam spread his fingers over his chest, thumbs
pushing the next button through its hole, reaching to stroke lightly
over
small, hard nipples. He felt the shudder
through Gene's body, the sudden grip of fingers into his legs.
"Sam…." His name on a breath, more erotic than Gene
could have possibly meant to it be.
He finished his
undressing,
button by button, pushing the shirt open and leaning in to gently kiss
hairless
skin.
Gene's hands
stroked a long
path around and up, roaming his back, coming up to settle uneasily at
his bare
shoulders, tucking under the wide straps of his vest.
Lifting his head,
Sam covered
Gene's mouth gently with his own, sliding his tongue between parted
lips while
he stroked his hand down to cup the bulge in Hunt's trousers.
Gene jerked under
him, groaning
into the kiss, pressing up into Sam's palm.
Dragging his mouth
away, Sam
the kissed top of Gene's ear before whispering, "Can I touch?"
He expected a nod,
a gesture,
not the murmured, "yes," in response.
Carefully he unzipped Gene's fly, sliding his hand inside, into
his
underwear, contacting hot, hard flesh, lifting the solid, thick cock
into his
hand, brushing the tip with his thumb.
They weren't even
close to
making love, but Sam was sure it was what Gene needed.
To be touched, to be pleasured, to enjoy it,
but most important of all, to have control over what was happening to
him, even
if it might have been the illusion of it.
Hands clutched at
him, at his
shoulders and arms, eyes now open then closed, acceptance and denial in
equal
measures.
Sam kissed his
neck, bit his
ear-lobe, nuzzled his hair, murmured softly against his mouth, "It's
okay. Just feel it, me, I won't hurt you."
Wrapping a strong
grip around
Gene's erection, Sam set a steady rhythm, using only the pressure he
knew he
needed to, massaging as well as gently pumping him, pushing the fingers
of his
other hand into soft blond hair, caressing his scalp, combing,
stroking, kissing
his mouth, sucking on Gene's tongue when it was slipped into his mouth.
It was long, drawn
out,
Gene's body almost giving up once, dick going soft in Sam's grasp. But Gene's open eyes locked with his at that
moment, and he begged, "Don't stop.
Please, don't stop."
Sam could see it in
his
expression; Gene straining for a climax that was just out of reach. He took his fingers from the hair and brushed
them over one hard nipple before pinching the brown bud.
Gene arched the
small of his
back, rubbing himself against Sam's hand, head back, shaking, muttering
a
string of incomprehensible phrases, fingers digging into Sam's
shoulder, nails
scraping furrows into the cheap carpet.
When he finally came, he yelled hard, spilling into Sam's hand,
bruising
with his grip.
When he opened his
eyes, they
were moist with unshed tears.
After a minute or
so, Sam
leaned forward and kissed him before clambering to his feet to wash his
hand. When he returned, Gene was sitting
up on the bed. That was fine, as far as
Sam was concerned. He looked dazed.
"You okay?"
Gene nodded, but as
Sam
turned to pick up the sheet and pillow from the floor, where they'd
slid, he
heard his name barely whispered.
"Sam."
In a gesture that looked simply alien to him,
Hunt was holding out his hand, palm up.
"Please."
Sam smiled and
dumped the
bedding his was holding. "You don't
have to say please." Stripping his
vest off over his head as Gene cautiously lay down on his side, he
added,
"Turn over."
The movement was
hesitant but
Hunt did as he was told, Sam lying behind him carefully, bare chest to
the sweat-damp
material of Gene's shirt, rubbing his toes along creased trousers. He folded one arm on the pillow above his
head so he could tangle his fingers in the blond hair, while he wrapped
the
other over Gene, catching his hand over his chest, holding it, palm to
palm,
knuckles brushing cooling skin. Kissing
the back of his neck gently, Sam murmured, "Get some sleep."
It wasn't long
before Gene
again complied. Twice in one night
wasn't bad.
~
Dawn was touching
the
darkness outside the window when Sam next opened his eyes.
Gene had let go of his hand but was still
lying with his back to Sam's front with all the trust he possessed,
breaths
huffing from him, the odd soft, nasal snore.
Careful not to make
the bed
creak - difficult when the sound was in the very fabric of the metal of
the
frame - he moved his hips back, away from the firm warmth of Gene's
body. Last thing Hunt needed was to wake
up to a
morning erection pressing up against his ass.
The trust he'd shown in Sam was incredible considering what Warren had forced on him, no way Sam was going to
breach
that.
He closed his eyes
again, gently
resting the tip of his nose against the back of Gene's head. His own feelings, his body's reactions, were
still surprising him. His comment about
the beer shower hadn't been the truth; he hadn't thought about it that
night. But he had thought about it -
them. The night they'd run the pub, the
night Gene had had him up against the wall out back for just a second
too long,
the night he'd watched his Guv drink the equivalent of a small-hold
off-licence
and remain standing right until the bitter end.
The night he'd
first touched Gene,
really touched him, risked a gentle massage to the base of his skull
when he
lifted his head and hoped Gene was too drunk to remember it. Too drunk to feel it.
He slept on and
off, warm,
oddly comfortable squashed up on the single bed next to Hunt, until the
sun
rose and he found himself alone.
~
"I want to speak to
Mr
Hunt, I'll only speak to Mr Hunt."
Sam stopped as he
walked in
through the doors of the station and heard the quiet insistence of the
young
man standing at the front desk, catching Phyllis' eye.
She looked more than relieved to see him,
suggesting,
"Perhaps DI Tyler
can
help you."
Sam smiled at their
visitor. "What do you need to see DCI Hunt
about?"
The man - no more
than twenty
by Sam's reckoning - looked scared. "It's
about Stephen Warren. I want to speak to
Mr Hunt."
Sam stepped into
Gene's
office and closed the door behind him, leaning back on it, looking at
Gene as
if this was the first time he'd seen him.
It stole his breath to think about how much had changed; the
shift in
their relationship. Did they even
realise what they'd done?
Having obviously
been home, showered
and changed, Gene still didn't look his usually grounded self and
regarded him
a little warily.
"Sam…."
They could talk
later, or so
he hoped. For now, "There's a young
lad waiting in Lost and Found, says he wants to speak to you and only
you about
Stephen Warren."
Gene let his head
slide into
his hands. "Christ, Sam.
Why won't he just stay dead?"
"Someone killed
him,
Guv." Pale blond eyebrows rose,
silently questioning the return to formalities.
'Guv'? "You should
talk to him."
"Okay, okay. But not alone. If
he knows what happened I'll need you there
to stop me from ringing his neck."
The young man rose
from his
seat when Gene stepped into Lost and Found but sat right back down
again,
shaking his head, when he saw Sam follow.
"I'll only speak to
you," he stammered, pointing at Gene with a subtly trembling finger.
Gene pulled out
both chairs
and dropped hard onto the left-hand one, the gesture catching Sam's
attention. Like having their own sides
of the bed, Sam had taken to sitting on the right when they performed
this
particular act.
"You'll speak to us
both. DI Tyler here will protect your
civil rights, so I wouldn't throw him out if I was you.
Leave it to me and I might start bouncing you
around the walls when I get bored of what you've got to say."
Sam too sat down. "What's your name?"
Their visitor
looked from one
to the other and obviously decided to take Hunt's advice.
"It's… Malcolm Tucker. People call
me Mal."
"Mal, what did you
want
to talk to DCI Hunt about?"
"Stephen Warren. Like I said."
Gene leaned
forward, elbows
on the surprisingly firm table.
"What about Warren?"
"I… I killed him."
The idea of
fetching the tape
recorder flitted through Sam's mind to be immediately dismissed. "How did you kill him?"
"I shot him. I… I were there, that night."
His beady green eyes snapped over to look at
Hunt. "I went to the club.
I heard shouting in Warren's office so I hid.
I saw you come out and waited until you'd gone downstairs. Then I went inside. Warren were… trying to stand up, trousers was down
around
his ankles and I could see his… you know.
His todger. He were
bleeding. I didn't see what you'd done
until… after. He looked up at me and he
sneered and I shot him, right through his head, dead-centre. He dropped like… like Punch at the fair when
the puppet man messes it up."
Sam could feel the
tension
building quickly in Gene, where his arm rested against his own. "What did you do with the gun?"
"Threw it in the
canal. After I shot him I ran away, just
kept running until I were down on the towpath.
I just threw it in, I weren't really thinking."
"Why did you shoot
him,
Mal?"
Those sharp eyes
misted over,
confidence evaporated, and he looked down at the table.
Sam recognised the shame and knew without his
question needing to be answered.
"He hurt you,
didn't
he? Forced you to do something you
didn't want to do?" Tucker nodded
sharply. "What was it?"
He waited, but no answer came. "Did
he put his dick in your mouth? Somewhere
else? Did he sodomise you, Mal?" Tucker's shoulders heaved up once before he
started to cry. "It wasn't your
fault. He was a rapist."
'And he
deserved everything he got.'
"Why did you come
here
to confess?" Gene was asking quietly, his own pain clear in his voice.
Sam glanced across
at him for
a second, not sure what he should say or do.
After a few seconds
Tucker
looked up. "I saw what you'd
done! With the pencils!
I thought you'd understand, that you'd let me
off. Don't tell me you didn't want to do
what I did, Mr Hunt! He did it to you,
what he did to me, I know - I heard him say it when the two of you were
arguing. I had to kill him or he was
going to do it again and no one's ever going to do it again!" Tears chased one another from his eyes, down
over his cheeks and lips, dropping to the tabletop from the low curve
of his
chin.
"I didn't kill
him." Sam had only heard Gene use
that tone once before. Low and
dangerous, made that way through fear and entrapment.
Conversely, there
was a note
of growing hysteria in Tucker's voice. "But
you wanted to! You would have done if you
weren't a copper,
weren't a coward."
Gene was out of his
seat in a
flash, hands flat on the table, looming over Tucker like an angry god.
Sam wrapped his
hand around one
tense wrist, "Guv…."
He was ignored. "Listen to me, you. What
happened between Warren and I was and is none of your bloody
business. You repeat a single word of what
you think
you heard to a living soul and I'll make sure you spend the rest of
your life
locked in cells with men who make Warren look like a heterosexual Catholic. Got that?"
Tucker was staring
up at
Hunt, crying, shaking, as trapped as Gene.
"Guv."
"Shut it, Sam. This squealing weasel has no right to come in
here and threaten me, accuse me of being a coward."
He never took his eyes from Tucker and his
next words were aimed at him, "You're the one spilling your guts like
this
is some kind of confessional! Do I look
like a priest to you?" Tucker shook
his head. "Now get out of my sight,
and next time you want to admit to a murder you didn't commit, first
try to
consider the consequences."
"Guv, you can't…."
But Gene's head
snapped
around and Sam knew what was coming.
"Just this once, don't question me, okay?" He
glanced at Tucker. "Are you still 'ere?"
Sam walked Malcolm
Tucker
out. For the first time since he'd
arrived here everything he knew about policing was sitting in direct
contravention to his personal feelings.
He'd sworn to himself that he'd protect Gene from the fallout of
Warren's assault.
This was the worst fallout there was; one man who should have
been
arrested for murder who would destroy Hunt's life if he was. Interviews, court appearances, confessions to
men in prison who probably already fantasised about getting just an
hour alone
with the man who'd been responsible for putting him there.
"You did the world
a
favour," he told Tucker eventually, as they reached the front desk. "See it as a second chance to live your
life you way you want to live it."
Tucker didn't look
convinced,
but he left the station without uttering another word.
Sam found Gene
still sitting
in the make-shift interview room, staring at the play of dusky light on
the
table top, lost in his own thoughts.
"You okay?" he
murmured as he closed the door and went to sit where Tucker had been.
Not answering, Gene
looked up
at him, for a long time, before he started, "About last night…."
Sam shook his head,
spreading
his fingers on the table. "Look,
there doesn't have to have been a last night if you don't want."
Lips pursed, Gene
took a deep
breath and blew it out through his nose.
Then he grunted and stood up, nodding once before leaving Sam
sitting
alone in the room wondering if that had been a yes or a no.
~
Sam was still
contemplating
tracking Gene down for lunch in the Railway Arms when Ray appeared in
front of
his desk.
"Body in the canal,
Boss. Uniform want a CID officer out
there pronto."
"I'm amazed they
ever
manage to get any barges along that canal with all the bodies floating
about." He snatched the piece of
crumpled notepaper from Ray's fingers, glancing up and seeing as much
surprise
on the demoted sergeant's face as he felt himself at his comment.
"Spending too long
around the Guv," he muttered in his own defence. Ray
gave a begrudging half-smile and shrugged. "Want
me to come with you?"
About to decline
and say he'd
take Chris, something stopped him and he nodded. "Why
not?"
Sam was the one
who'd started
to drag the pathologist out to the crime scene rather than let him get
his
first sight of the body when it was already flat on the slab. Their resident 'Doctor Death' as Gene had
referred to him late one night in the pub had since attended one or two
scenes
and strangely he beat them to the canal this time.
"Lunchtime," he explained once Sam and Ray arrived.
"Quicker I get this over with, quicker I
can get to the sandwiches my wife made for me."
Sam and Ray shared
a smile
with raised eyebrows and Sam bent to study the face of the dead man. As soon as he turned himself the right way up
he recognised Malcolm Tucker.
"No sign of
violence
other than the fact that he's dead. I
would say he drowned but an autopsy will prove me right or wrong."
Sam caught the
doctor's
bright, cheerful gaze. "Did he jump
or was he pushed?" He winced at the
underlying sarcasm in his own tone. Far
too much time spent around Hunt.
But he got an
answer
anyway. "Professional opinion? He jumped.
Wrists and ankles show no signs of being tied, no head injury
that I can
see although I will obviously have to double-check.
He might have just slipped and fallen
in. Like I said, you'll have to wait for
the details."
Ray crouched beside
him when
the pathologist wondered off, presumably to his sandwiches.
"You know him,
Boss?"
"Malcolm Tucker. Came in earlier to
confess to the murder of Stephen Warren but I didn't believe him -
thought he
was one of those jokers who come in to waste police time, so I threw
him
out. Looks like I was wrong."
Ray shrugged. "Likely he just wanted attention.
People do.
And suicide is supposed to be a way of grabbing attention, isn't
it? I wouldn't blame yourself,
Boss. One less lunatic in the world
isn't going to hurt anyone, is it?"
Sam watched Ray too
rise and
wonder away. If he himself didn't push
it, no one would. As long as the autopsy
conclusion was suicide, that would be the end of it.
If he was murdered… well, that was a whole
new investigation he'd take up if and when.
~
Gene threw back the
double
scotch in one gulp and slammed the heavy glass down onto the bar,
hunching over
it.
"He killed
himself?"
Standing just a
little bit
too close, arms folded on the sticky surface, Sam shrugged. "That would be my guess. He
couldn't live either with what Warren had done to him or what he'd done to Warren
- maybe
both. We wouldn't put him away and it
wasn't really what he wanted. He just
couldn't
find a way to live."
Shaking his head,
Gene drew
the glass closer to him. "I know
you, Sam. You'd have found him a way out
- diminished responsibility or sommat, got him a couple of years in a
nice
clean hospital somewhere, kept him out of the clutches of the
criminals-turned-rapists I've put away."
Sam was incredulous. "You're blaming me for his death?"
"No."
Gene chuckled softly. "No.
I'm… trying to come to terms with what you did for me. I know you did it for me, so he wouldn't have
a chance to blag what he knew all over the station, through the courts
and in
prison. I just don't get why you did
it. I understand you don't hate my guts
but
I didn't think you'd go to such lengths to protect me either."
Shrugging, trying
to come
across as casual as he could under the circumstances, Sam replied, "I
don't hate you. I've never hated
you. When Warren assaulted you, he took something from me too. It was nothing… I mean, compared to how much
he hurt you. But it meant
something." He sighed, knowing he
wasn't making sense, able to see that much clear in Gene's expression. "I can't lose you."
Gene ordered
another drink
and downed it just as fast. "Warren did the same to Tucker and he ended up
swallowing the
Manchester Canal."
Sam shook his head
slowly,
knowing where Hunt was headed.
"You're stronger than that."
"I'm not, Sam. At least, I wasn't. But
Tucker was alone. He didn't have you to
keep him
sane." He paused, hesitated, then
turned and met Sam's intense gaze.
"I do want there to have been a last night.
And I want there to be a this afternoon
too."
~
Sam was surprised
when Gene
pulled up outside his house.
"The Missus went to
her
sister's yesterday," he explained as he pulled the car keys from the
ignition. "Won't be back until the
weekend."
"Are you sure about
this?"
"She uses it for
her
coffee mornings and WI get-togethers."
It was difficult to ignore the note of bitterness in Gene's
voice. "Time I used it for something more
than
a hotel."
"I think what we're
about to do is using it exactly like a hotel," but Gene was already out
of
the car and Sam kept his muttered comment to himself.
They stepped inside
the
silent house, quietly closing the door.
Gene hung his coat on the banister and Sam followed suit,
following his
guv up the carpeted stairs. His heart
was pounding. This was nothing like last
night, which had just happened even if Sam had encouraged it along. This was stair climbing with intent. This was watching Gene's ass in his worn
trousers and knowing that within the hour he'd have his hands all over
it. Images of Gene naked, that lion's
power
unrestrained, unleashed, flashed through his mind and he almost changed
his
mind.
But as they reached
the
landing and Gene turned to look at him, the images were swept away by
the
intensity in his eyes.
"Listen, Sam…. I'm still sore and I couldn't… I can't do…
that again…."
Suddenly the
spiralling fear
turned to an aching need and Sam lifted both hands to Gene's face,
fingers
combing into his hair, thumbs stroking his temples.
"There is nothing to be scared of. We
do only what you want to, only what feels
comfortable and good. We can just do
what we did last night if it's all you want."
Gene looked at him,
voice
hesitant. "I want to touch
you."
And a smile broke
out across
Sam's face. "Oh, believe me, I want
that too." Leaning forward, tilting
his head just an inch, Sam put his mouth against Gene's and waited,
waiting for
those lips to part, waiting until he could slide his tongue between
nicotine-stained teeth and over Gene's own.
Strong arms locked
around him
and they stumbled back into a bedroom, Gene moaning softly into Sam's
mouth,
Sam happily swallowing every utterance, stroking his back, pulling his
shirt
from his pants and finding skin, desperate to touch.
Still kissing, Gene
shrugged
his jacket off while Sam's fingers made short work of his tie, skipping
down
the front of his shirt, unfastening the buttons, pulling at the last
one when
it refused to move, pinging it off to a distant corner of the floor.
Finally stepping
back, Sam
pushed Gene down to the neatly-made double bed, instantly messing up
the
perfectly-set eiderdown, crumpling the freshly starched sheets beneath.
Straddling his
thighs, Sam
leaned down to suck on one pebble-hard nipple, gently at first, then as
Gene's
hands clutched at his head, firmer, sliding his teeth over the
sensitive
bud. Gene cried out, jerked under him,
dick hardening alongside Sam's.
He swapped to the
right one,
lapping at it with his tongue, tracing the puckering skin around it
before
sucking it between his lips, fingers finding and pinching the nipple
he'd
abandoned.
Gene swore
brightly, hands
leaving Sam's head to scrabble at his shirt, pulling it up, scraping
short
nails down his bare back. Lifting his
head, Sam kissed him, open-mouthed and obscene, breaking the contact
only to
pull his shirt off over his head before leaning down again, feeling
Gene's
hands over his ribs, large thumbs rubbing experimentally over his own
nipples.
This was something
Gene had
never done, something he knew nothing about except for the pain and
humiliation
of having it forced upon him. But Sam
knew from past experience that his guv was a very fast leaner and when
Gene sat
up slightly under him, wrapped his arms around him and fastened his
teeth
ever-so-gently to Sam's left nipple, Sam knew he wasn't going to be
disappointed.
They shuffled into
a sitting
position, neither willing to let go; Gene's back against the pillows,
Sam
straddling his thighs still, hands in the blond hair, hugging Gene's
head to
his chest where his mouth was doing incredible things that were
short-circuiting his brain and flooding his cock.
He could feel
himself pulsing
against the answering erection at Hunt's groin and finally had to push
Gene
away.
"I'm about to come
in my
pants," he announced, breathless, ungraceful, putting the best smile
he'd
ever seen on Gene's face.
"Better get 'em off
then."
Sam moved down the
bed,
stripped off socks, trousers and underwear, catching Gene staring at
him as he started
to do the same.
"Remember," he
reassured, "nothing you're not comfortable with."
Gene nodded - two
jerky
movements - then pushed his own clothes to the floor, reaching to pull
Sam back
over his lap. Only then did he look
down, between them, at the same time that Sam wrapped one hand around
both
their dicks, rubbing them together, slow and firm.
"Jesus Christ,"
Gene's breathy moan punctuated the space between them, hands sliding a
little
uncertainly down Sam's arms just before Sam used his free hand to curve
around
the back of Gene's head and pull him close for a deep-throating kiss.
When he broke off,
he smiled
to himself and murmured, "Is a bloke brushing his teeth on a fella's
John
Thomas acceptable?"
He didn't give Gene
time to
place the reference or to respond either way.
He scooted back along the muscular legs, bent double and heard
his own
name spoken in a shocked voice just as he stretched his lips over
Gene's thick
erection.
He'd always thought
the sight
of another man's erect cock was one of the most erotic things around. All that primal excitement, that arousal,
that pent-up need. The urge to fuck. He'd never had to be this gentle with a
partner before, back in the real world.
Right about now the guy's legs would be spreading and Sam would
be
reaching back a lubed thumb to prepare his lover for what was to come.
Not with Gene. Instead he rolled the heavy, plump balls in
his palm and stroked his sac with gentle fingers while his tongue
lapped at the
sensitive head of the engorged cock, sliding it to the back of his
throat,
swallowing, muscles rolling over it.
Gene's hands
clutched
convulsively at his shoulders and head, and Sam could feel how much he
was
holding back, how desperate he was to push for more and how much it was
costing
him not to.
His climax last
night had
been painful and he'd come alone. Not
today.
Today Sam sat back
up,
silencing Gene's nonsensical pleas with a kiss that must have tasted of
himself. Gene didn't seem to care,
sticking his tongue
as far into Sam's mouth as he could reach, thrusting up again through
Sam's
two-handed fist as it gripped them both, back in position.
Sam sucked on
Gene's tongue,
pulling and pushing at flushed skin trapped between his own flat
stomach and
Gene's gut, thumbs finding the twin points on their weeping cocks and
playing
there, teasing, taunting, until his lover pulled back from the kiss and
froze. Sam felt the hot, sticky wetness
on his hand before he felt the shudder of climax rip through Gene's
body. The incredible luridness of another
man's
spunk on his own cock did the trick it always had done and launched
Sam's own
orgasm, hands still jerking them in unison, slowing only when the
bright white
spots cleared from his vision.
Gene dropped back,
pulling
Sam with him, half-sitting, half lying against the pillows with Sam
sprawled
over him, head in the dip of his shoulder.
"Jesus...." Sam could hear the unspoken words - 'it's never been that good' - and instead
of the expected smugness he could only feel sadness.
Gene needed to be touched, needed to be
physical. Sam guessed it was where all
the male bonding came in - a substitute for what he couldn't find,
couldn't
have.
Until Sam had come
along, out
of the blue. The knowledge that Warren had got there first made him so angry he had
to
wonder how long it would have been before his feelings for Gene blotted
out his
own morals and he'd have done exactly what Malcolm Tucker had.
Sam worked his arms
under Gene,
holding on to him as fiercely as Gene's arms were keeping him close.
"I don't know where
you
came from, Sam," he heard before he drifted off, "but I'm bloody glad
you're here."
~
Gene was sitting on
the edge
of the bed when Sam woke, mug in his hand, wearing a dark blue rob and
a smile
on his face.
"Guess what? I've remembered where the kitchen
is." Gene handed him the mug as he
sat up, the dark aroma of coffee bringing all of Sam's senses to full
wakefulness.
"Thanks. What time is it?"
"Just after nine."
"Morning or night?"
Gene chuckled. "Night.
You weren't quite that out of it, but if this going to become a
habit
you're going to have to seriously think about getting a bigger bed. The Missus isn't away too often."
"Habit, huh?" Sam
teased, sipping his coffee.
Instead of picking
up on the
gentle ribbing, Gene glanced away. Sam
reached out, rubbed his arm lightly and waited.
There was still so much healing to be done, it was going to be a
long
process, a single step at a time.
"Sam… I know how
much
you've done for me and I know this isn't all to do with Warren, but if you don't want….
I mean, I know you and Cartwright…."
Sliding his hand
over Gene's,
Sam threaded fingers through his, lifting his hand until they were palm
to
palm. "Annie and I are
friends. I wouldn't exactly call you my
typical type but you're apparently what I need, here and now. Don't make the same mistake I always do and
analyse this to death."
Closing his fingers
around
Sam's hand, holding on tight, Gene nodded.
"Just promise me… you won't tell a soul."
Putting the mug
down onto the
floor, Sam wrapped his free arm up around Gene's neck and touched,
mouth to
mouth. "You're safe with me."
FIN
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